Category Archives: Lady in Waiting (Singleness of Heart)

Something A Little Different- Singing “Wait”

So I wanted to try something different, you know, something out of my comfort zone and out of the norm. I put this little video together for you. Yes, I have to give my cousin Crystal Garcia some credit for this because she inspired me to do something different. Instead of blogging, I thought I’d put a little video. Maybe it’s a little corny that I’m singing for my future husband, whoever God decides to send my way. But Hey, I’m single and I know there have to be some single young ladies and fellas out there who may need a little encouragement. Wait on the Lord!

So I’m singing just a little bit of this song acapella from Group 1 Crew who is a Christian group and the song is “Wait”

Enjoy!!!!

 

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Regrets!!! (For the young)

Has anyone ever had any regrets in life?

I know that there are many people who say “Live your life without any regrets, the mistakes you make learn from them. But have no regrets.”

Those are good words right there. I believe, in life, that we should not have any regrets. It may be a cliche to say that but there’s truth to that very statement. “No Regrets!”

But what about when you do?

Life is not always perfect, it usually comes with some hard times. I know this, believe me.

I’m saying this because, I, the imperfect creature that I am, have some regrets in life. I can name some but there is one thing that I regret the most and the one thing that I would like to focus on all the more.

My regrets:

I regret not living up to the standards God would have me to live. Even though it’s most likely impossible to achieve that standard, I regret giving up all to easily instead of pushing through just a little bit harder.

I regret treating my parents the way I did when I was younger, taking advantage of them and only thinking about myself. Even though seeing those things in my life and changing them, with the Lord’s help of course, it made me into a better woman and quite possibly, a better daughter. I’ve grown from that, but what I didn’t realize was the stress that would still drag along from all those years that is still affecting the people I love today.

I regret not taking God at His word when certain situations would come up and I wanted to do things on my own ability. I failed miserably without God.

The one thing I truly regret is not putting my all in highschool when I know I could have been that A+ student. I was capable of getting a scholarship to any college I would have applied to. Instead, I did my least when I should have done my best. I was hardly at school, always home doing my own thing. I didn’t put the effort I know I could have put in. I was super smart, but I didn’t give myself the chance. I gave up way to soon. Though I graduated from highschool, I barely made it. Now I’m in college at 27 years old. I started late, but now I have a purpose. I see that I am an A student and I’m probably one of the top Math students in my class, involved in the Math club at the college and one of the many top students in our Opticianry class. My work and study habits are exceptional and I push for nothing but the best out of myself. I see all these great traits in me now and I can’t help but be a little disappointed in myself. If I could have put this much effort back in highschool than college would have been over for me a long time ago, I could have been that doctor I wanted to become and my life would have been starting. Though I don’t regret all of it. That time of my life only made me realize how much more of God I needed. And all of that brought me to where I am now. I should not dwell on the past, because the future is only ahead. But if I can maybe, even the slightest bit encourage the young teenagers of this generation with these small regrets, than maybe…just maybe…they can take themselves seriously and learn from me.

For the teenagers:

Read that book that you don’t want to read because your friends might think you’re not cool.

Put some time aside just for studying on the weekends, if only to refresh your memory of what you learned during the week.

Get that extra help after school if you don’t understand something.

Don’t be afraid to ask questions.

Be yourself, instead of trying to be with the “in” crowd.

Take time and think about your life, your future, and how you treat your family. Odds are…if you don’t notice, someone else will and put you in your place. Drop the attitude…believe me…if you can nip it in the butt now, you will save yourself a long time of regrets.

Learn more of God…you are not guaranteed your next breath. Just because you are young it doesn’t mean you’re invincible. I’ve known or heard of too many young kids slip into eternity, just like that. And not many of them that knew Christ.

The one thing that I DO NOT regret is staying pure for God. Even at 27 years old, I am single and have never been married. I have never known a man in any sexual way…just staying pure for that one that God is preparing for me. Believe me, if I can do it, even though I was an outgoing, outspoken teenager, you can do it. There are too many young kids having babies and they can’t even support themselves. Purity is a sacred thing and the most beautiful gift you can ever give to your husband or wife. God loves a pure heart. Trust me…you will not regret it!!!


A Silver-lining in my Valentine’s Day Saga <3

So the last blog I wrote “On Valentine’s Day” was a total ranting and raving about how more single and lonely I feel on Valentine’s Day. I compared myself to the likes of Jessica Biel in the movie “Valentine’s Day” with her psycho persona when it came to that “dreadful day”. Her “HATE-Valentine’s Day parties” because she was always alone that specific day came as a commonality to me. I feel the pain, I’ve been there. With her girlfriends around, taking their anger out with a bat on a candy filled pinata for all the men that have done them wrong, seemingly to “celebrate” their loneliness. Even than, for Jessica their was a silver-lining for her, even at her own “hate” party. The very handsome Jamie Foxx seemed to have her same thoughts on Valentine’s in mind which brought, even them, together.

So tells my tale…here I am sitting in the office at my work place, trying not to think of this day as any other day but ordinary. Though, in the back of mind all I kept thinking of was…”Wouldn’t it be nice to get some flowers, or a box of candy from a special someone.” As I was doing my work, I here a pull at the office door and I see a little man, no more than 3 feet tall, he had in his hands a bouquet of flowers, a heart-shaped box of “Hershey’s Pot of Gold Fine Confections Premium Collection” chocolates, and to top it off a HUGE heart-shaped balloon that sings “I Got You Babe”. My Valentine’s, from that moment, lit up. I open the door, and the little man with my mom, my brother and my sister in-law standing to the side, says in his extremely loud and high-pitched voice, “WILL YOU BE MY BALENTINE?” Yes…”Balentine”…not Valentine. I couldn’t help but cry…and there it was, my 5 year old nephew. Beautiful as he is, I was delighted, ecstatic, and he changed my view, if only for one day, what Valentine’s Day is really about… Love… not just for lover’s, husbands and wives…and most certainly not to drown your sorrows on all the different thoughts of singleness, but love for family and friends and more simply….LIFE!


So you see…even though my previous blog “On Valentine’s Day” was what made my sister in-law bring my nephew to me to change my mind about Valentine’s Day…the fact of the matter is that it did. So I still won’t put too much emphasis on this day because I still feel as if it is a bit over-rated, but I can have better thoughts on it and make it the best that I can and enjoy what’s left of it.

Thank you to my family, especially my nephew Jovani for helping me see and being that silver-lining for me…MY “BALENTINE”!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY ❤

i ❤ (heart) u!!!!


On Valentine’s Day!!!

Okay, So here we have the big day!!! The day for lover’s!!! The day where people spend a lot of money on chocolate’s and candy and candle light dinners for their sweethearts.

AWWWW!!!! Isn’t that sweet? ❤

Well…no! Not for me…I’ll let you in on a little secret and I’ll tell you why.

Valentine’s is just a bit over-rated! There you have it! I said it! Whooo!!! It feels good to get that off my chest. 😉

Here is a day that was created for lover’s and sweethearts, a day that should be full of love and laughter and excitement, (for those who are in love, I’m not downing it for you, believe me), but I do believe it’s over rated. Now please don’t think me strange or weird, I like Valentine’s Day. I think it’s kind of humorous…I enjoy watching people spend their money and their time for the name of love and an ordinary day. Heck, I spent money to have a gift basket sent to my cousin in Syracuse to arrive just in time for Valentine’s. Ironic, is it not? Anyways, what do I know, I’m just the writer, the person behind the scenes, analyzing every detail about the worldly love and how it works and doesn’t work.

But…Here we have the typical Valentine’s “scene”… the chocolates, boxes of heart shaped gifts, flowers, roses, teddy bears, balloons, secret admirers and the like….OH, let’s not forget Mr. Cupid. The little guy that’s half naked with a bow and arrow shaped like a heart AND he has little feathered WINGS!!! I wonder who made that one up? I find the little guy quite funny. I understand the lovers have their day. Great…and so they should, but shouldn’t that day be everyday? Not just one single day. What happens when tomorrow, the day after Valentine’s, comes? Does everything go back to normal and sparks die down? So all these flower shops, candy stores, bakeries and restaurants make most of their money on this day. And I’m sure they don’t mind you spending your money either. They take your hard earned cash when all you really have to do is tell the love of your life, “Sweetheart, I love you and there’s no day in the world that can make me love you more because everyday is OUR day.”

AWWW!!!! Dito….isn’t that sweet? I would say it sure is.

But NOOO!!! We want the gifts, the candy, the special treatment. Who am I kidding I would give anything for THAT right now! Well…not really give anything….but I would appreciate it a whole lot.

Year after year…when it comes to Valentine’s…I am still single. No one to call my own. I’m fine with it…..ehhhh…..sometimes. But usually never around Valentine’s. That’s why I rebel against it…(and I will put that famous…LOL…that everyone LOVES so much. I should say I ❤ (heart) U, LOL!!!!

I’m not sure if you’ve seen the movie “Valentine’s Day” but I know for a fact that I’m Jessica Biel in that movie….the psycho chick obsessed with her “HATE-Valentine’s Party”, something single girls would obviously do because they never have a Valentine’s “someone”. Isn’t that a bit stereo-typical of us single women? Either way, it turns out she didn’t hate Valentine’s Day…she hated the idea of ALWAYS being alone on Valentine’s Day and went on this psycho rant about how everyone should be miserable with her. Well…some of it is me…I can soooo see her point and her frustration, but I wouldn’t go that far as to host a party in protest against Valentine’s Day…..instead….I blog!!! (Haha) Notice the laughter in there 🙂

So rest assured that this is not me bashing the lover’s “sacred” day…quite simply, only pointing out the obvious. So please don’t take offense. Just trying to have a little humorous fun with the day that I would really like to like….or like to love! ❤

Most of my valentine days were filled with single young women wanting to go out and have fun to “celebrate” or “party” away their loneliness. So at least we can say, “We are having fun and we don’t need men to make us whole.” And that is true….we most certainly don’t need men to make us whole because we are precious in the sight of God, but we can’t pretend that deep down inside what we WEREN’T really thinking was, “Darn!!! Another Valentine’s Day without the man of my dreams.” Or, “Awwww, look at those couples over there, why can’t that be me?” Our Valentine Days were filled with Sparkling cider and chick flicks and exchanging gifts to eachother as if saying we are lonely but we don’t have to drown our sorrows in beer or cheap wine. Instead we’ll drink sparkling cider and eat chocolate and watch movies while we cry ourselves to laughter or even laugh ourselves to tears. Whichever one works!!!

Amy, you’re my girl this year…I’ll race you to the lines of the flower shops!!! Hehehe!!!!

Ironic…….Isn’t it?



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